I don’t know how to begin or how to soften an opening like this, but about a month ago my father died. When he was diagnosed in February of 2020 they gave him about a year to live. We got that year with him, and I am so grateful for that time. I would drive about an hour each week to take him to treatment, get his groceries, and then have dinner sitting in his backyard. The isolation that comes with chemo and radiation is hard, and covid made it even more severe for him. So we talked on the phone every day too. We spent a lot of time together and really for the first time in my life, built a relationship.
At times caring for him was inconvenient and just hard. I don’t want to paint myself in a better light than I deserve. There were many times I didn’t want to answer the phone or felt very weary standing in line at Costco. But I knew. I knew there would be a day when he stopped calling. Or when I wouldn’t need to drive out each week. So I did my best not to complain, and make the most of it because future Christa would treasure that time. I was right.
Since his passing things have not gotten easier. And I’m out in my hometown 2 – 3 times a week these days. Needless to say this season of life is rather unpredictable in all areas – emotional and logistical. I’ve been back in the studio part-time for two weeks and realized that my well made plans for the studio this spring need to change. So I wanted to let you know what you can expect from me and create a post that you could come back to as needed. So here are three things you can expect from me this spring.
1.Weekly Art Drops for the Spring Garden Collection
Creating a collection and releasing it like I normally do, takes a tremendous amount of effort and time. Especially when it comes to the back end and computer work. And in such an unpredictable season of life, creating the Spring Garden Collection this way seemed simply unattainable. But the flowers are blooming and I have a craving to create with them so I devised a method of releasing this collection in a way that was manageable for me – weekly art drops. It will be pretty simple, each week at 2 pm I will send an email to my insiders with a link to purchase one piece of original artwork. The first release will be on May 10th and then one piece a week will be made available for the rest of spring.
These pieces will be available to my email list only, however, if there is any artwork left over at the end of the season, I will offer those to the public in some way. It might be a page on my website or just a sale on Instagram. It largely depends on what life is like then. But I will do my best to keep everyone updated on these changes. If you are interested in these weekly art drops, sign up for my email list.
2. Creating the Current Collection
I am in the process of creating a conceptual collection. I am exploring the connection of grief and the ocean, and through it processing my own grief. It is an intuitive and abstract collection, unlike anything I’ve ever made before. Which is scary and vulnerable but so far very healing. This idea came was inspired by a helpful metaphor I began to use to process my sadness and describe how I am doing to others. It is the idea that grief comes in waves. I think there is much about the way we interact with the ocean, that can inform the way we move through a season of grief. I am sharing very openly about this process on Instagram, especially in my stories. If you haven’t been following along, I did create a highlight for it so the whole process could be saved.
It is my hope to have this collection finished by late spring or early summer but I am not putting too much pressure on myself. With this collection especially, it is far more about the process than it is about the result.
I felt like it might be helpful to say that if you want to collect artwork but you don’t want to wait for the Current Collection or you can’t get your hands on a Spring Garden piece, I always have prints available. I spent so long choosing the paper, and color-correcting with my print lab to get the shade blue just right that the quality of these prints is just incredible. Sometimes it is even hard to believe that they aren’t originals.
I’ll end by saying thank you. Thank you to everyone who shared your kindness and empathy through a comment, dm, or text. Thank you to those of you who wrote us cards, brought us meals, or sent us flowers. Your generosity and care mean the world.